The Dancer in the Shadows

Thursday, January 25, 2007

?

pain and confusion is setting in... there is so much i thought i knew that has just been shown to be an illusion... i don't know what to make of it now... i can't even say for certain which pieces are reality and which pieces are the shattered illusion... it is all a jumbled mess right now... i don't know something i thought i knew... perhaps... perhaps i don't know someone as well as i thought i knew...

--- dancer in pain

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

again?

or rather still... i have the same sinus infection i had from the previous post... it weakened for a bit but never went away... tomorrow i am going to try for a followup appointment... for something different/stronger/longer/i don't know/etc. to again try to eliminate this sinus infection...

in other news i think the busy season for my wife's bridal shop is officially underway... short version is she will be so busy at her shop that i might see her conscious long enough for her to walk from the front door of the apartment to her bed and fall over... maybe... she might need to be carried on some days...

still, it isn't like we didn't discuss this before she made the descision to purchase it. many times... we knew this would come, and now it has... time to weather it and watch for the end and we work our way through...

i'm still living most of the week three hours away from her because my job is still down here... this was also something we'd discussed... we were hopeful that i would be up there very soon, but that is not to be the case it seems...

and now something to take the edge of my pain (it feels like my face is going to burst soon from the pressure, and i haven't been able to breath through my nose in long enough that i am wondering if i will have a permanent rasp after this) and to bed for me, i've been up far too long already.

--- the Dancer in the Shadows